just put me down

i feel like shit. im back at college for the first time in about 5 weeks (due to being lazy aswell as being snowed in i just havn't gone to college. lame.) im now sat in the usual extended project, writing this. after suffering from lack of sleep for the last few weeks, im finally feeling to brunt of all this bullshit. im literally fatigued, my body is bored of being awake and energetic and is putting up a fight to go into shut down. had a migraine last night which sucked nuts, and for some pathetic reason i still have it. probably after sitting under that fucking epileptic-fit-inducing flickering light in the textiles room. college is so homo its unreal, after being away for so long ive realized why im so reluctant to be here. its a load of shit, the people are shit, the lessons are shit. ive got so much work to do and so little friends that every day here is like some little pathetic physcological torture. its not that long till i get to flick some V's at this place and never see it again but ive got till the 28th of june to sit out. ive also decided im going on a gap year, which means some really banging blogs for all 12 of you followers. love you gaiz btw (L) my leg is still being spazzy, im putting it down to it being mildly dislocated. my brain feels like its about to burst and cover my neighbouring computer into chunks of grey sludge. my little finger still FUCKING hurts from that FUCKING cactus. BUT, i have a lovely lump of citrine hanging off my neck- for all of you who dont know what that is, its a very nice crystal- for its healing powers. after going into the crystal shop yesterday to get perscribed a nice shiny stone to obliterate my alements, i felt pretty tranquil. plus this rock looks fucking cool, it just makes me not so hostile about the whole shitty life, just makes me apathetic. this whole typing with my last word of a sentence bold is awesome.